What’s the point?

*date your journal entry and add the title; quarantine day 573,685,079* 

Here’s to another day of feeling unmotivated, downcast in spirit, isolated, ready to delete Zoom off ALL your devices and bake 12 more brownies to add to the 50 cookies and two cakes you made yesterday.

Here’s to when your phone goes off and the notification sound making you think, “Who is it??? who wants to party!!!” but, really, another day thinking what today can become.

On this road of quarantine we are hearing a lot of different, inspirational, and awesome ways to get ourselves motivated or inspired and we have access to it all.  I’ve seen some people inspire me, but I’ve also seen some people practically die of that dark cloud boredom.

I am honestly amazed that we have everything at our fingertips in these bottomless modes of technology and are still bored.  I have to smack myself out of it sometimes. You know what they say, “no one had enough time for anything… and now they still don’t!” 

We have countless methods of “staying in touch” and still end each Zoom, FaceTime, and virtual world of Social Media site so thirsty for more. It’s like we’re craving something we can’t express, so we just crave the feeling of ecstasy and wonder where we’ll get it.

We were stripped of everything without warning and it honestly feels like time has stopped. The good news is God has not, “God is touching Earth’s time with Heaven’s eternity.” 

Darkness is not dark to You -Psalm 139:12

I’m all over the place as I write this, hang with me, but remember all those moments that shaped your life. Those stories and moments, sometimes years, that gave life a “point”

The time you made the high school sports team.
The time you joined the church Youth Group.
The time you spent with the love of your life.
The time you learned how to do a back handspring.
The time you got into the college you love.
The time you decided what you wanted to do with your life.
The time you self-motivated yourself to workout and work hard for something and felt so accomplished.

Duh, state the obvious we are shaped by these moments, encounters, and experiences because boredom was never present within them. I am going to be a Debby-Downer and remind you that they all ended at one point. Physically, they ended. Chances are some of them ended because of a lil’b-otch called COVID19. So they ended but their memories, their grace, their supernatural touch to your heart, mind, body, and soul is sealed to you for eternity — it’s quite literally still alive in your very soul.

Everything we strive for, get up for, and live for has been lifted. What we realistically lived for was gone, poof. I mean, It’s not “gone” but it’s lost somewhere since it’s not right at our fingertips. Even if you are working from home it’s not the same (and it really shouldn’t be #humanconnection.)

As someone who works out nearly 6 days a week, by week 2 of pandemic I even asked, “why keep working out?” to then laugh 5 minutes later and crush a 50 minute burn-session.  I know the entire point of working out is not for the praise, looks, or fame, but solely for the love of the game and for health of mind, body, and soul. My own health and wholeness, that’s the point.

Quarantine truth 457:  What you love most is going to stick with you this time of isolation. 

If you struggle with an area of your life where you ask, “what’s the point?” I want you to reply with the same response God would.

Every single time you talk to God or ask Him that exact question, His answers stays the same;  You.

You’re the point. 

“God what was the point of that relationship back in 2000?”
You.
“God what was the point of that song coming on the radio right when I turned it on?”
You.
“God what was the point of the 5 days of rain?”
You.
“God what was the point of ending that season of success?”
You.
“God what was the point of that award?”
You.

Your health. Your happiness. Your success. Your priorities. Your growth. Your success. Your kindness. Your love. Your healing.  To show YOU how capable and lovable you are. To show you I don’t just “give you what you want, but what you need.” To show you I am there even when you feel lost. To show you I intervened and fought. To broadcast to you the depth you carry. To show you the love you possess and to gift it to another. To show you the power you have. To show you I actively want to be in your life, and intervene when you need it. 

To show you I love you. 

To show you nothing can take away who you are because within you is everything you need from the very breath of God.

Nothing can rob you of life: not sickness, not isolation, not even, dare I say it, death.

If you are not worth work working for, if you are not worth fighting for, if your heart is not worth rescuing or healing, then seriously Corona is not your issue hopelessness is.  We have received a gift of spending time transforming our whole life by deciding what we are available for and creating time, boundaries, a vision, and decisions to support it.

That’s not boring! No one can run towards a goal, a hope, or a passion that is boring.

“If we know we have life, we know we have the powers of that life.”  

A God of mighty deeds, wonders, and signs, signs that have been smacking you in the face your whole life, IS always ready to do all for you several, hundreds, and countless times (moments) a day then what’s missing is our faith.  A God who does not abandon us in pandemics, leaving us as “the walking dead” proves that His love can be shown in any circumstance

In quarantine or not a God personified, in Jesus, has not changed.  Jesus is still ready to show us the path of life.

The path of Jesus’ whole life was defined by love. That’s all he had. No job, no real income, no stable house (he was always moving), no sense of real food security, no toilet paper and hand-sanitizer (doesn’t mean you should stop using them!), only a body that loved everything and everyone. Jesus was never bored!  He was a body, given up for others in blood, sweat, tears, words, traveling, and suffering to build a sustaining and loving relationship with you. Once this relationship started, fed, and lived,bringing you out of what makes you feel like “the walking dead,” does the boredom lift.

You Can’t Do It Alone.

The one thing Jesus DID put together before He went off in mission (spoiler alert: it’s not a savings account) was to get 12 really solid friends. He needed people. He needed their love and company even if it was imperfect and unstable. And lastly, He needed prayer. Time alone, with the perfect love of The Father to re-strengthen Him in EVERYTHING.

“Like, Jesus’ claim to divine love is an offense, an embarrassment. We would prefer to avoid the choice to believe it or not, for believing is “strong meat”, and disbelieving all of it is calling Christ a liar, which is easier.  We therefore “reinterpret” it, water it down, explain it away, and reduce it to a ‘a statement that has been used too often to be interesting or thoughtful.'” 

Jesus’ whole life was defined by love and so is ours.  If love is low, boredom is high.

If you never pick up a Bible in quarantine, just know that Jesus wanted to have relationships. He wanted to love people and be loved. He wanted people to feel seen, known, desired, and personally touched by love. I assume most people agree with this “path of life.”

A majority of the paths we have taken, the plans we have made, and the things that have inspired us are because of the people in our lives.  Basically, we are who we are because of those who loved us, and yes, those who refused to love us.

Communion with others is life-giving and for that quarantine has robbed us of what we need most. You look forward to it, it quenches a thirst, it brings sweetness, it wakes you up. And along with that, we need communion with God. There’s no circumstances or previous engagements stopping us from sitting with Him for a little bit each day. Add Him to your list of people who have shaped you into who you are. Prayer is not boredom, and sharing your heart to God is nothing short of sweet.

In times like this we really and truly begin to ask “what’s the point?” to a lot of things to figure out their exact meaning to us is, and of course God will be one of them.

“Every time time is given to God, it is transformed and tamed. Every time it is not, time becomes a wild beast or a slave driver.” 

Prayer is not “conforming” to some mold of “Christianity,” rather it is just communing with God, honoring Him, believing He will intervene, and worshiping His goodness.  Prayer is the only place on Earth where a person isn’t giving themselves in pieces, but their entire heart. Their entire presence, listening. It’s not a chore. Chores are restrictive. Prayer touches eternity in an infinite way.  Talking to someone you love and sharing their company touches eternity. It’s the same with prayer.

Prayer can go backwards, forward, to the heavens where your deceased loved ones are, it can go to the friend you miss hugging, it can go to the souls of the lost-lovers and visit them with a kiss or a thank-you, it can reach the depths of your own brokenness, it can be as LOUD as a notification, and as subtle as eyes opening at the sound of sun and birds chirping.

God gives us timelessness every moment, in the soul, and since we are STILL not participating in that, we are miserable, unfulfilled, missing something, and still hurting. “We are free to actualize or to sell our freedom to pray. We are free to live in God’s presence or in the presence of large, moving masses of molecule.”  More than anything, prayer gets us out of the revolving doors our days have become. Prayer calls us to something greater; eternity and introduces us to someone greater; God.  And all hopelessness and purposelessness comes when we are not listening to our calling to live something greater than ourselves and our comforts.

Isn’t that love — the greatest and most uncomfortable calling that gets you out of bed in the morning?

Love is the point. You are the point.

Xo, Shannon